Wednesday, February 27, 2013

B for blues

Hey B,

I just wanna clarify something right now.

If I, should ask you about how you truly felt in a certain situation, and you did- I wouldn't think of you to be selfish for telling me how you feel, in fact it's good to honestly tell someone about how you feel instead of keeping it in and suppressing it until it turns into resentment. But then how is that different from telling someone, without being ask, about how a person makes you feel? It makes me wonder if only when asked is it alright to tell how a person truly feels. Is it selfish of me to tell the truth about my feelings? It's not and I'm not ashamed of being honest about how I feel. You know me well don't you? I don't stoop low just to make someone feel crappy about themselves and it's sad that some people actually think I do. The years that you know me, do I really have the heart or the attitude to do that? Like seriously. Well here's a reality check-I don't do that cause I care about how people feel even when some people keep telling me to not give a fuck. I'm sympathetic and empathetic and I care. 

I swear I'm not a horrible person but people keep getting the wrong impression of me. I'm not sure if it's mine or their loss. Its upsetting cause I thought my friends know me best but when that friendship is tested they actually don't know a damn thing about you. The struggle you went through to get them a special gift for Christmas, the money you spent on making a homemade birthday present that wasn't even appreciated, the time you spent defending them whenever someone says something nasty and even giving them a shoulder to cry on when their heart got broken, all of it seems meaningless now. 

"Friends tell you the truth no matter what. That's what friends are for because I have those in my life."-MB. I need to find friends like this. Not the kinds that keep making me upset and getting fooled by my fake smile. Sometimes people just need to step back, read between the lines and contemplate if their actions makes sense at all. 







Thursday, February 21, 2013

Tampar Hang

Hey B,

It's picture timeeeeeee. So meet Rohan!


Rohan is the guy I always talk to when I feel so low and need some harsh truth to just snap me back from it. He's the guy that would make me laugh when I'm crying my eyes out during our skype sessions and say "tampar hang" if I shed another tear. He's the guy that would always give me good advises whenever I share with him some of my sad life story. Even though we had issue in the past, I'm glad that we were able to look past it and become friends. So thank you Rohan- if you're reading this, for the hospitality that you have shown me last weekend. I really needed some time away from school and hanging out with you last weekend really made me feel so much better. Thank you for bringing me out jalan-jalan around campus even when you were busy with school work. I promise I'll come back to visit you when you're not busy. 


Moving on..



I reached State College at 9:40pm and Rohan bought me Hainanese Chicken Rice from Penang, a  local Malaysian restaurant. In return I made oreo truffles for dessert.


This building is called the Old Main. When Rohan said it I heard 'Old Man' and I was so curious why he wanted to bring me meet an old man. 


I wish I was under a mistletoe but a bell works too! I actually thought this was the bell with the crack at the side that's why I took a pic of it. Pada hal its just a normal bell and I lebih lebih jakun. 


I'm in love with this view! You can't see it but there's actually a pond there.

Ain't it pretty?
I couldn't help myself, I had to take a pic with the pond!
Oh you know, just hanging with my boys lol
The streets were empty that day because it was Thon weekend. Thon is a student-run philanthropy where they raise funds and awareness on pediatric cancer. This year they raise $12 374 034.46! A lot right? And they do it every year and the number has just been increasing ever since they started in 1977.Respect.
Saw this art thingymajig on display and thought it was kinda freaky. It looks like a decaying body (O.o)
This is Pattee Library and Paterno Library. Damn big.
Rohan brought me to the Agriculture Science building! This is where Najmi and the rest go to menuntut ilmu lol jakun bha me.
This is my favorite place OMG. Rohan took his time to bring me to the Creamery! Such a tease. This is a list of all their flavor. I was torn between Death by Chocolate and Bittersweet Mint. Guess what I went for...

Jeng jeng jeng
The Bittersweet Mint! :D It's cause its hard to find mint ice cream. It was freaking delicious,cheap and damn big! Its the size of my face, not even kidding. I finished the whole thing in 11 minutes and 30 seconds. and yes, I timed myself. Shit la I should have join the ice cream eating competition on campus. 
This was the line that day. Its very long but you actually don't wait long. The workers work pretty fast.
Penn State Stadium :D Didn't go any closer cause it was so cold that day.
I like this picture because it looks like its mirrored. It's so...symmetrical. Kinda.
Yvonne made sweet potato cake, it was delicious! Didn't even taste like sweet potatoes.
Last picture that I took. This was actually taken before I found out that I missed the bus lol.

Well, that's kinda all the picture that I took from State College. I had a great time there even though I didn't do much :p But hey, I went cause I wanted to meet with my friends and I did just that. I hope to go visit Rohan and Jazz and everyone else again and experience the night life there LOL.

I'm thinking of doing the 365 Project. It's where you take a picture a day for 365 days. It sounds like my kind of thing since I take pictures of everything and anything. My only concern is if I can follow through with it since I get bored easily. See la how. 

Bye!




















Monday, February 18, 2013

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy

Hey B,

I'm writing this from the bus cause I'm overcome by shock and all I wanna do is just tell the whole world about my luck this morning.

..............................*pause for effect lol*

I miss my freaking bus back to New York!!!!

Argh I'm so upset with myself. I've never miss anything in my life before. Well I've missed Stevens shuttle,subways and light rails and stuff before but never transportation that cost me more than $4.20!

It was dumb. I woke up kinda early.... Ok I woke up an hour before, shower took a lil long. And taxi took so long to come!! And along the way there was 4 red stop lights. Gah stress. When I reached the bus stop 3 minutes after 9.40am the bus was no where to be seen and I knew I missed it. Fuck.

Despite everything I'm surprised that I'm calm. Normally I would freak out and my hands would tremble but I woke up with a whatever attitude. But damnit this stupid whatever attitude made me buy another ticket!! I had to take it out of my spring break fund T.T I can tell u one thing, my econs class is really teaching me the value of money. Now trying to save money like crazy.

While I'm typing this on my phone my butt is sore like hell. I have to sit on one butt cheek at a time because if I seat on both it hurts like crazy. Hahaha it's funny when you think about it. Sakit sial! All I want now is to go back, cook some comfort food, do homework and sleep lying flat on my face- have to give my butt some rest. Hey that rhymes lol. Argh, 3 more hours to go. T.T

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Sohai

Hey B,

This week has done me in. Homework, test, meetings  and all. Sometimes I wonder why I chose to major in engineering. Story of my life. 

I'm currently visiting Rohan in Pennsylvania. It's been a blast, I really miss him. Though we Skype often, meeting him in person is definitely way better. I really miss his humor, I forgot how funny he is. He's so so so mature now- I'm not saying that he wasn't before, it's just that sometimes I see him and I think to myself, who is this person. No longer the kiddy Rohan I used to know from Shah Alam.

I'm really thankful to him. He gave me his shoulder to cry on when I was low and bittersweet advices for any situation/drama that I was in. Haha.. It's funny cause he thinks I'm not listening to him but I  value and hold his advices and opinions close to my heart. Cheesy I know but whatever. Good friends are hard to find when you're in messed up situation.

Pics of this trip will be posted up! The campus is beautiful, I wish you came with me. Maybe next time, I really want you to meet him. 

See ya soon!  

Sunday, February 3, 2013

A note

Hey you,

I know I haven't been reaching out to you lately, I'm sorry. I've been busy adapting to my new apartment, roommates and school. Oh hey, check out the new crib :D


Its pretty awesome. I love my roommies and I love my space. I have a walk in closet and everything, something that I've always wanted since first semester Sophomore year. My roommies are the coolest people ever, even though there's six girls in the apartment we get along so well. Oh and we're all of different background, how crazy is that. We have Peruvian, Indian, Polish, Armenian, African American and Malaysian. Crazy right :p Maybe it's just me but I love how diverse my housemates are. 

Remember that talk we had when I was home? I'm really glad we had it. You're right, I don't need to care what people think about me cause the only opinion that should matter the most to me is my own. I can't be friends with everyone, I know that now. I just wanna start living and not be depressed in problems or dramas or of what people think. Enough of all that shit. 

Anywayyyy.. picture time! So many things to tell you.

 1. I finally figure out how to use the subway 
2. I finally made my first set of letters,woot woot
3. I finally had a McGangBang, super unhealthy but so so good.
4. I finally spent money on a concert! lmao
5. I finally went out to Central Park and took a picture of the fountain. I've seen this fountain in so many movies but never took a decent picture.
6. I finally had a chance to join Phong's korean BBQ
7. I finally had the guts to bake a rainbow cake. I failed of course. My cake looks..disgusting. 

The photos are random, I still need to learn how to stick to one topic when I talk to you instead of talking bits about everything. But yeah.. so far everything is going well. So don't worry :)

Ciao.